Former NRL Gold Coast Titans star who joined Rebels bikie gang opens up on how his past

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Former NRL Gold Coast Titans star who joined Rebels bikie gang opens up on how his past

A former rugby league prodigy has opened up about how he went off the rails and ended up behind bars after joining the Rebels bikie gang.Dan Kilian

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A former rugby league prodigy has opened up about how he went off the rails and ended up behind bars after joining the Rebels bikie gang.

Dan Kilian was still in high school when he began playing for the under-20s Gold Coast Titans in 2011, which he still describes as his favourite footy memory.

He signed a contract with the Newcastle Knights the following year before a battle with anxiety and depression saw him throw away his promising league career at the age of 19 – finding himself in jail within two years.

Kilian, now 25, has opened up about his troubled past, life behind bars and the battle to get his life back on track since in a candid interview with Queensland Police, titled The Dan Kilian Story.

Former rising rugby league star Dan Kilian (pictured leaving the Supreme Court in 2017) has opened up how his life spiralled out of control when he was younger

Former rising rugby league star Dan Kilian (pictured leaving the Supreme Court in 2017) has opened up how his life spiralled out of control when he was younger

‘I became the perfect concoction of the human monster; super greedy, manipulative, disloyal, abusive, violent,’ he recalled. 

‘Your only end point is to make money, to get your ego fluffed up by the other members and get that stature of not-to-be-f**ked with or whose got the most money, whose got the most gold, who can get the most women, who is moving the most gear.

‘There were some aspects that were enjoyable but that’s the whole glorification of the whole thing behind it.’ 

Kilian became involved with the Rebels at the age of 19 when he returned home to Coffs Harbour on the NSW mid north coast after walking away from the sport.

He pleaded guilty to drug trafficking in 2017 after being caught buying 10,000 MDMA tablets for $10 each.

Kilian sold the pills on, netting himself thousands of dollars in profit, some of which he spent on drugs. 

‘I used drugs and alcohol to band-aid my depression, but all it did was spiral me out of control,’ Kilian recalled.

Dan Kilian pictured at the age 19 when he threw away his promising rugby league career ad joined the Rebels bikie gang

Dan Kilian pictured at the age 19 when he threw away his promising rugby league career ad joined the Rebels bikie gang

‘I ran into a bloke at a pub, that I’ve realised was in the Rebels, we’d actually locked eyes and it was going to be a bit of a scuffle, but before you know it we were all back at the clubhouse that night on the p*ss and whatnot.

‘He said I’ve got a mate that runs a footy club up north, would you be interested and I just thought yes sure why not… never being in that realm of gangs before that I didn’t see that this guy was actually getting me up here for his own purpose.’ 

Kilian admitted he was forced to do things he didn’t want to do while he was a Rebels members

‘It wasn’t pleasant, some things will stay with me forever,’ he said.

‘I went home and out my head in a pillow many times and thought, what have I done.’

‘When you hate yourself more, you learn to self-destruct more.’ 

Dan Kilian (pictured) spent more than two years behind bars in his early 20s, which he described as a real eyeopener

Dan Kilian (pictured) spent more than two years behind bars in his early 20s, which he described as a real eyeopener

Dan Kilian's mum (left) was interviewed alongside her son in the Queensland Police video

Dan Kilian’s mum (left) was interviewed alongside her son in the Queensland Police video

Mr Kilian was eventually arrested in a dramatic bikie raid in 2014 and spent more than two years in prisons across New South Wales and Queensland.

‘Eighteen months in NSW jails at the age of 20 was a real eyeopener,’ he said. 

‘It was harsh reality, coming from a place of opportunities to a place like that, you sit there and really really regret and think what the f*** have I done.’

‘It was massive, massive smack in the mouth.’ 

He used time in a Bathurst jail to better himself, spending time in the library and reading 150 books.  

‘I then went to Queensland prison and did the same thing,’ he said.

‘I trained as much as I could, three, four, times a day, sometimes more.

‘I just got sick of feeling like sh*t. I got sick of my mental capacity having control over me … I’m still not perfect but I try to stay as mentally strong as I can.’

Kilian cut ties with the Rebels when he was released from jail and didn’t look back. 

The end of the video shows Kilian one year on from filming, where he revealed getting his life back on track had been ‘challenging and tiring.’

Dan Kilian (pictured in the police video) admits he's still getting his life back on track after it spiralled out of control eight years ago

Dan Kilian (pictured in the police video) admits he’s still getting his life back on track after it spiralled out of control eight years ago

Dan Kilian (pictured leaving court in 2017) has cut ties with the Rebels bikie club

Dan Kilian (pictured leaving court in 2017) has cut ties with the Rebels bikie club

‘Sometimes I feel like there’s a mountain in front of me but I’m determined not to give up because I realise there’s a purpose to leading a positive life without crime, depression, substance abuse and broken relationships,’ he explains.

‘In the 12 months since filming I’ve come face to face with many of my demons.’

‘I have withdrawn from my efforts of reform as I believed I could solve my problems on my own but I just kept knocking myself down and down and my mental health suffered because of it.’

‘Eventually I realised I was the demon within myself, denying myself the help I needed because I thought I knew best.’ 

Kilian has since accepted his internal battles and sought professional help.

‘I’m improving my relationships and once again, I’m feeling positive about the direction of my life,’ he said.

The video ends with Kilian urging others in a similar situation to never give up.

If you or anyone you knows needs confidential support, call Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Beyond Blue: 1300 22 4636.

Dan Kilian (pictured) spent 2020 playing for his local rugby league club Sawtell Panthers on the NSW mid north coast

Dan Kilian (pictured) spent 2020 playing for his local rugby league club Sawtell Panthers on the NSW mid north coast

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